Who Is Never Left Out or Used...

Everyone's been there. Waiting in hopes of being chosen to be on the GOOD kick ball team when you were 6. Bouncing up and down, the team captains fingers constantly passing right by you. But no need to worry you'll get picked next.... OK maybe next..... how about now? Until it comes down to you and the nerd with asthma and they chose him. Yup, you are stuck last on the loser team because no one wants you.

We've all been, there, some more than others. And being the youngest in a big family I can assure you I have been there a lot. My big siblings never want to include me because being with your little sister is so lame. Well not if your the little sister. For me, honestly, it stinks, being left out. And for me it not only happens at home but also with my friends. And. It. Stinks, being left out. It never EVER feels good and you can't do anything about it but sit there are feel totally, honestly, and completely rejected thinking "maybe next time" or "I guess no one really does care."

And what's even worse. The one situation I am never left out makes me feel even worse than when I do get left out. I'm smart. And people in my classes love to fight over being my partner for a lab or essay or project. First of all, I don't even get a say in it. That bothers me. And what's worse is the only reason I am not being left out this time is because I'm smart. People want the A that they know they can't get by themselves. And that makes me feel even worse. Being left out of kick ball because, honestly, I stink at kick ball does not compare to being used for your knowledge.

And that's all it is. I'm being used. For 90% of the time in life I'm left out of everything but when people can use me for a good grade, all of the sudden they start to fight. And you might think "Hey, Anomii, people are fighting over you, isn't that awesome?"

And I can answer you. No. No it is not.

I'm left out and then I'm used. The sad sad life of a nerd who never wanted to be.

My hopes for you, my dear, nonexistent friend. Be included. It stinks being left out, and it stinks being used. So don't let it happen to you.

People fighting over you is never a good thing when in the end they don't care about you. They don't care that you want to be their friend or you are a nice person inside. You're either included into the group, or used to help the group.

It's your choice.

Actually, it's not your choice. I don't think there is anything really that you can do to avoid ending up like me; left out and used.

And all I hope is that you don't end up being left out, or used.

Because having asthma-nerd-boy picked over you never feels good, whether your 6 or 60.